College Thoughts

College is amazing there is freedom and understanding.

Everything is different. Everything is new and there is no going back.

So do we make a whole different self to go along with it or do we continue on…

I guess these are the questions worth asking when we have the time.

Do we hold onto those from our past life or do we allow both all of us to grow?

Can we grow while we are still attached?

These are the questions we must answer ourselves.

But it takes a toll sometimes.

The best answer is always hidden underneath layers of triumph and turmoil.

So what do we do?

2 years summed up into one day

Wow…
Somedays are like a dream… maybe not so much a dream come true but they leave you feeling awe struck.
Today was one of those days.
Some days you wake up and are not sure how things way turn out…
No matter what happens I believe everything happens for a reason and a lot of the time you don’t know why they happen but hey that is what keeps life interesting I guess.
I guess it is just amazing what can happen to someone in just a few years. It can seem like a lifetime has passed and that is terrifying.
But what I have learned is that…
If you are scared to look in the mirror because you are uneasy with the person that you see then that means you can do better.
That means that you have work to do and I don’t want to live my life always terrified of what might happen because then that wounds you and leaves you hanging.
Also… my last advice for tonight..
Who are you with the people that you have relationships with. Would you wanna be in a relationship with you? if not why… How can you change that.
One word or decision could change your life forever.
Today was a very very interesting day. Sometimes you just gotta call it a night and say… shhhhh brain don’t think anymore you have already done enough today.
How was your day?

Man in the Mirror

Do words still keep their meaning?

As time fades do words we wrote or spoke still keep their potency?

I sometimes wonder if everything we feel and think is valid?

False.

Every thought we have is influenced by a higher being, whether it be the master on the television. It may even be the woman who gave birth to our poor unfortunate souls.

Sometimes it is mostly just the man in the mirror.

I used to pride myself on thinking that every action I took was only a chain within myself.

That it only mattered how I lived every second not what happened to my disintegrating body in the long run.

Are we born intelligent or do we gain that gift as we age?

Choices we may have made even yesterday can be embarrassing, insult what we call, our morals.

Or, we knew what we had done was wrong and yet we proceeded to do so.

Maybe it is a mix of both.

My angry advice on self image

Ok lets just get this straight!

You are not over emotional if you have feelings

You are over emotional if you let those feelings control you.

All the emotions that we have are just beautiful and poetic nothing more it is the poetry of the world.

Even in your darkest hour no matter how anger or hurt or happy or crazy you feel it is perfect because we all are.

When people vent to me and they say oh my poor life I am ugly blah blah blah

I always look at them and say

“What the fuck makes you think that?”

And they always say something about how people always tell them that

But why does it matter what others say?

You are the one living with yourself 24/7 you choose who you are and who you want to be.

Mirrors do not show you everything they are only contorted images of ourselves!

Look in the mirror and tell yourself who you want to be because that is most likely already who you are!

God dammit people!

You are killing me!